Life was insane for so long. I was overwhelmed, exhausted, and trying to do way too much. It still happens—but not as often as it used to.
Before I started putting myself and my health first—above my job, housework, and what people think—I was more of a mess than I am now. And honestly? I’m still a mess. But I’m a work in progress.
This is a journey.
I don’t think we ever truly “arrive.” We keep learning and adjusting our whole lives, because life never stays the same.
(But You Know You Need It)
There are moments in life when everything feels like too much.
Not just busy. Not just stressful.
But heavy—like your body, your mind, your circumstances are all working against you at the same time.
That’s where I am right now.
I don’t like how my life is progressing. I feel frustrated in ways that are hard to even explain. Something as simple as wanting to get laundry done or get the house cleaned up so I can rest—turns into a disconnect that leaves me feeling unseen and misunderstood.
(more…)I recently watched a video about Hidden ADD by Aron Croft (https://www.youtube.com/@HIDDENADHD), and it stopped me in my tracks. One point he made felt especially true: people with ADHD often operate on a different internal clock than people without it. We tend to work later, push closer to deadlines, and finish things at times that don’t always line up neatly with expectations.
That realization got me thinking about how often ADHD is misunderstood—not because people are unkind, but because what’s happening internally isn’t visible.
From the outside, it can look like nothing has changed. But from the inside, everything feels louder.
(more…)I need to lose weight.
Even writing that sentence feels loaded. Not because I don’t know it’s true, but because it carries so much history with it—old photos, old bodies, old versions of myself that felt lighter in more ways than one.
I was thin once. Or at least thinner. I remember what it felt like to move through the world without constantly thinking about my body. When I look back, it’s hard not to compare who I am now to who I was then. Everyone says you should only look forward, but that’s easier said than done when your past body feels like proof that you used to be able to do this.
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Chronically Adultish 