Chronically Adultish

Tag: ADHD

  • Where God Leads Me in My Limitations

    Limitations are hard. Right now, I am fighting so much. The physical limitations are the ones that no one can see, but I feel them—pain, exhaustion, soul-crushing fatigue. And no one understands how it is unless they experience it for themselves.

    What I should do is not worry about what others think and instead just think about how the Lord sees me. But that is easier said than done. The whole thing is seriously frustrating. So what I normally do is just shut down. The ADHD paralysis comes knocking, and the fatigue from chronic illness helps me to just stop. That is when I pretend there is nothing to do and nothing wrong, and I just zone out.

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  • When Change Feels Impossible

    (But You Know You Need It)

    There are moments in life when everything feels like too much.

    Not just busy. Not just stressful.

    But heavy—like your body, your mind, your circumstances are all working against you at the same time.

    That’s where I am right now.

    I don’t like how my life is progressing. I feel frustrated in ways that are hard to even explain. Something as simple as wanting to get laundry done or get the house cleaned up so I can rest—turns into a disconnect that leaves me feeling unseen and misunderstood.

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  • When ADHD and the Clock Don’t Agree

    I recently watched a video about Hidden ADD by Aron Croft (https://www.youtube.com/@HIDDENADHD), and it stopped me in my tracks. One point he made felt especially true: people with ADHD often operate on a different internal clock than people without it. We tend to work later, push closer to deadlines, and finish things at times that don’t always line up neatly with expectations.

    That realization got me thinking about how often ADHD is misunderstood—not because people are unkind, but because what’s happening internally isn’t visible.

    From the outside, it can look like nothing has changed. But from the inside, everything feels louder.

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  • When Losing Weight Feels Heavier Than the Weight Itself

    I need to lose weight.

    Even writing that sentence feels loaded. Not because I don’t know it’s true, but because it carries so much history with it—old photos, old bodies, old versions of myself that felt lighter in more ways than one.

    I was thin once. Or at least thinner. I remember what it felt like to move through the world without constantly thinking about my body. When I look back, it’s hard not to compare who I am now to who I was then. Everyone says you should only look forward, but that’s easier said than done when your past body feels like proof that you used to be able to do this.

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  • Learning to Keep Life Simple

    This past week has been difficult. I’ve been struggling with some new health issues — as if I didn’t already have enough going on. Whenever something new jumps into my world, I tend to get overwhelmed by everything else. It’s like the new thing takes all my attention, and everything else starts to feel like just one more problem piled on top.

    I wonder if anyone else does this. Is it an ADHD thing, or just a me thing?

    After feeling sick for days, I finally went to the ER. They ran a bunch of tests, gave me some strong medicine, and then told me my liver counts were high. I was shocked. I don’t drink, I eat carefully, I try to take care of myself — so what in the world was causing this?

    At first, it felt really discouraging. I caught myself thinking, “Oh great… here we go again… woe is me.”

    But after the initial wave of self-pity, something inside me softened. I began to sense that maybe this was God’s reminder to me — a nudge to slow down and keep my life simple.

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  • ADHD Adventure

    Dealing with ADHD is formidable but it is also an adventurous trek that I would not be able to experience any other way. I thank God for the gift of ADHD, even on the days that it makes me appear (and feel) super flakey. 

    There are so many people in the world that think it is just a label we use to cover the fact that we are lazy. There is truly nothing more infuriating. Most people that feel this way have not taken the time to really even try to understand what it means to be an ADHDer. There is so much to it. It is such a fight and at the same time, quite delightful. 

    Some of the main symptoms that adult women with ADHD struggle with are disorganization, feeling overwhelmed, anxiety, depression, issues with money management, struggling with time management, trouble staying focused, putting off boring tasks, and forgetting where you have put things.

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  • Invisible Battles: Enduring with Chronic Illness and Neurodiversity

    Living with both neurodiversity and chronic illness can feel like fighting battles on two fronts; battles no one but you can see. In this blog post, we will explore some of the unique struggles we face—and how Scripture offers comfort, strength, and hope.

    Frequent Struggles of People who Fight Both Battles

    Executive Dysfunction & Lack of Energy Collide:

    Chronic illness causes fatigue, pain, and/or brain fog. Neurodivergence may include executive dysfunction—difficulty getting started, organizing, or following through. Together, you might want to get up and handle your responsibilities—but your body or brain (or both)  just won’t cooperate.

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  • Hard, But Worth It

    My Journey with Chronic Illness, Neurodivergence, and Relentless Grace

    I never planned for my life to look like this—navigating a body that won’t cooperate and a brain that doesn’t play by the rules. Living with both chronic illness and neurodivergence means that even the simplest tasks can feel like climbing mountains with bare feet. But this is my journey. It’s a hot mess, quite painful, and very unpredictable—and still, somehow, it’s blessed. I’m learning that the hard path can also be a wonderful road to learning exactly what God has for me. This blog is where I’ll tell the truth about that road, one adventure at a time.