
Limitations are hard. Right now, I am fighting so much. The physical limitations are the ones that no one can see, but I feel them—pain, exhaustion, soul-crushing fatigue. And no one understands how it is unless they experience it for themselves.
What I should do is not worry about what others think and instead just think about how the Lord sees me. But that is easier said than done. The whole thing is seriously frustrating. So what I normally do is just shut down. The ADHD paralysis comes knocking, and the fatigue from chronic illness helps me to just stop. That is when I pretend there is nothing to do and nothing wrong, and I just zone out.
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