Life was insane for so long. I was overwhelmed, exhausted, and trying to do way too much. It still happens—but not as often as it used to.
Before I started putting myself and my health first—above my job, housework, and what people think—I was more of a mess than I am now. And honestly? I’m still a mess. But I’m a work in progress.
This is a journey.
I don’t think we ever truly “arrive.” We keep learning and adjusting our whole lives, because life never stays the same.
Limitations are hard. Right now, I am fighting so much. The physical limitations are the ones that no one can see, but I feel them—pain, exhaustion, soul-crushing fatigue. And no one understands how it is unless they experience it for themselves.
What I should do is not worry about what others think and instead just think about how the Lord sees me. But that is easier said than done. The whole thing is seriously frustrating. So what I normally do is just shut down. The ADHD paralysis comes knocking, and the fatigue from chronic illness helps me to just stop. That is when I pretend there is nothing to do and nothing wrong, and I just zone out.
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(But You Know You Need It)
There are moments in life when everything feels like too much.
Not just busy. Not just stressful.
But heavy—like your body, your mind, your circumstances are all working against you at the same time.
That’s where I am right now.
I don’t like how my life is progressing. I feel frustrated in ways that are hard to even explain. Something as simple as wanting to get laundry done or get the house cleaned up so I can rest—turns into a disconnect that leaves me feeling unseen and misunderstood.
(more…)Living with both neurodiversity and chronic illness can feel like fighting battles on two fronts; battles no one but you can see. In this blog post, we will explore some of the unique struggles we face—and how Scripture offers comfort, strength, and hope.
Chronic illness causes fatigue, pain, and/or brain fog. Neurodivergence may include executive dysfunction—difficulty getting started, organizing, or following through. Together, you might want to get up and handle your responsibilities—but your body or brain (or both) just won’t cooperate.
(more…)My Journey with Chronic Illness, Neurodivergence, and Relentless Grace
I never planned for my life to look like this—navigating a body that won’t cooperate and a brain that doesn’t play by the rules. Living with both chronic illness and neurodivergence means that even the simplest tasks can feel like climbing mountains with bare feet. But this is my journey. It’s a hot mess, quite painful, and very unpredictable—and still, somehow, it’s blessed. I’m learning that the hard path can also be a wonderful road to learning exactly what God has for me. This blog is where I’ll tell the truth about that road, one adventure at a time.
Chronically Adultish 